sitting around with nothing to do.

i think its terrible when i wake up at 11 fully rested and after i realize its 1 in the afternoon i feel more tired than ever.

i should probably get more sleep.

i should go work out, but im too lazy for it right now... maybe around 6.

ive come to realize that i use the digits 969 too often for my call sign. server969 is something i thought up in 7th grade when i was trolling aim. its now the screen name for basically everything i use. i need to think of a new one before i go the way of pthorn91. thats my itunes acct, my blogger acct, my facebook, my email, and all forums i visit.

i sent a mass message out last night to 20 people saying i got a blog. kenny is the only one whos seen it now. i knew most of them wouldnt look anyway :P Theres a distinct satisfaction you get from letting your day out. all of your subconscious thoughts spill and people can look at the mess and try to make sense of what you were thinking that day.

The extended battery came for my phone. now i can talk to all of my no friends for even longer between charges. no seriously, i talk to kenny, parker, and cat the most. max sometimes, carley almost never, and kayla on occasion.

im hungry

i just ate.

im still lonely, and still bitching about it. i know basically every one of my friends' friends, and i still crave finding someone i can really click with. im just bored. with myself and where i am in life. im a junior in high school, of course i hate life. i have another year of this bullshit. im not even 17 yet o.o
thats probably why i like drama so much. its interesting and sometimes i can help things. its just interesting, like solving puzzles, only not. at all.

i keep a tape recorder by my bed thinking repeating my day into it every night for the past two years will change something, or in some way help. i have 5 hours of me talking on 4 tapes. it started back at the beginning of sophomore year and i stopped doing them around christmas this year. my whole relationship with munchy is on there and cat and up to the end of those times. funny how you can fit joy and elated prosperity alongside complete sadness. but with sadness comes happiness, and hapiness with sadness.

i want to go to the lake.